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HOME!

I am home to stay, and chilling with my pup!

I am basically starting fresh with my goals, because I put them on hold while out of town.  I definitely need to work on staying positive.  My favorite blogger Andy from StyleScrapbook recently blogged about the law of attraction, and that made me happy.  She's proof of a person living an awesome life, and credits thinking positively to that.

Getting fit and healthy is definitely another thing I NEED to start pronto.  I spent the last 3 weeks with paid meals...and let me tell you I took advantage of that.  Now I am home, and cannot fit into my favorite shorts so...morning yoga, and swim tomorrow.

Oh, and I still need to get organized.

I may be thinking new plans for my life...it's too unsure to mention at the time though.

Goals Update

As I mentioned in my previous update, I have been working out of town for the past two weeks.  I feel like my normal life is on pause while I am here, and I seem to have paused my goals.  I have not worked on any new jewelry, I have started eating HORRIBLY, and my room...let's not talk about my room.

I went home for the weekend, so I took that opportunity to get some jewelry making supplies, but not a good assortment.  If I can get my butt over to Michaels or Hobby Lobby I can perhaps work on some of that.  I am not making any promises, but if I have the opportunity.

Organization..new goal...god help me

Organization...my LEAST favorite word!! Ask anyone who has ever told me to organize anything. I become very unlikable after the request is made.

I have mentioned AT LEAST a couple times that I have all this great jewelry in my head, and I will put photos up as soon as these masterpieces are complete. Notice..still no photos. Last night I realized the issue. My inability to organize has deeply effected my jewelry making supplies. I have everything thrown into one grocery bag. Beads, Chain, Wire, Pliers, you name it, it is in the bag. There have been bead bags that have come open so there are at least a hundred loose beads at the bottom of this bag. Things are tangled, it's just awful. Every time I sit down to make something I feel SO unbelievably overwhelmed.

Basically I need to organize, but where? My room looks like my jewelry supply bag in bedroom form. I recently did a major cleaning of my room, and I loved it while it was clean. I don't know how I let it get this bad again, but I am hoping it won't take so much to clean this time.

I only work eight hours this week, which I would normally complain about. Considering I have been working overtime for the past few weeks, I'll think of this as a vacation. I am actually looking forward to it very much. I will dedicate some of that time to cleaning my room and organizing my jewelry supplies. Then you will see the masterpieces continue.

I'm following The Secret Daily on Twitter now.

"Love and gratitude will dissolve all negativity in our lives, no matter what form it has taken."

This was yesterdays tweet, and it's so true. Ever since I started reading/listening to The Secret, these are the main points I focused on. I mentioned my "gratitude bracelet" in a previous post, and when I think of what I am grateful for, it is usually the people in my life. So I guess I got the Love and Gratitude part with one practice.

Yes, I have been loving the people I love so much more these days, but I just have one issue. I cannot love the people I don't love. By that I mean I can't like the people I don't like. I've been trying to not say mean things or complain about people, but I get to work and there's so much to complain about that I forget. :/

So that's my new goal. To not shit talk. I can do it!...i think.


I think I need this

READ IT!

Jewelry

I haven't made jewelry in a while, but I got some lovelies brewin in my brain. I was planning on working on a beautiful necklace today after work, but I decided to peruse the internet first. I layed down on my bed to do so, and that was the beginning of the end. The nap was inevitable. I may work on a little something now, but no one can really know for sure.

I am working long early days the rest of the week so I have to go to bed in like...an hour. sad face. I'm not complaining though, the paycheck will be beauteous. Okay...I'm complaining a little bit, but I gotta keep my eye on the prize.

I just remembered how much I want to live in the city

Today my little sister, Maria, and I went to Chicago today. We totally did tourist things at the beginning, and it was TONS O FUN.

First, we took pictures by Buckingham Fountain
(Pictures of this were on her camera, so they are coming soon.)
Then by the bean





After that we saw the puppet bike, which I makes me SUPER happy. I look for that like every time I go downtown.

Zen we shopped and went to Giordano's



Then we went home...good day.





yeah...didn't really take pictures of what we were wearing. You just gotta trust me. We looked cute.

Update on The Secret

I have been practicing The Secret for about a month now, and my life has seriously improved. Every little bit of skepticism inside of me is gone. I am nowhere near reaching all of my goals, but I can see them coming together. I am no long stressing about what I'm going to do if I can't be a jewelry designer, or how I can ever afford to finish college. It is safe to say that right now, my life is Pure Bliss.

I have the greatest people in the world surrounding me.
I have a greatest family alive. (the secret didn't change that, they've always been great.)
I have the greatest boyfriend alive.
I can finally say I have enough money to do the things I want, AND I am constantly coming across new opportunities to make money! (guess who just added ADS to her blog!!)

I really want people to start reading The Secret. Of course there are times that I get down in the dumps, but imagine my life if I could just stay positive through those times too. Now think of people who are constantly negative...look what such a small change can do.

Life is Grand!

Now I am going downtown with my little sister. We are dressing cute so I may have to copy off of fashion bloggers and take pictures of ourselves..lol

My life

I haven't posted in like...a week, so I know you people have been on the edge of your seats waiting..and waiting for me to talk about my life and goals some more.

This past week started off horrible, but let me tell you...from Tuesday on it was GRReat!

I don't really have any new goals to mention, but I would like to update on goals I've already talked about. First of all, I've been working a lot these days, so I'm thinking with my extra money I am going to buy a dressform...I have a coupon! I really want to start making some clothing.

Another goal, I mentioned is getting fit. You see....I've been a lazy cow. I want to start jogging, but I just don't know when. I've been working at 5am so if I want to jog in the morning I would have to do that at 3:30 and....uh...no. I would probably run at night, but I'v been told that it's not good to run before bed. And don't even get me started on the cow part.

The Secret. Besides that paragraph above, I have been doing pretty well with thinking positively. Not as good as I like because I say things like the paragraph above. I still have lots more to read up on the law of attraction, but like I said: I've been being a lazy cow these days.

Also...I'm really happy.

Negativity

I have been having such a hard time thinking positively these days, and I really don't know how to fix this. I keep getting this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach, and no mood switcher that I can think of can fix this.

I am also seeing the negative effects of this, and I don't like it one bit. I haven't really read The Secret in like a week. Perhaps I should do that. I need to get out of this funk.

New Goal: New Car

So here I am, still obsessing about The Secret. While I obsess, I think to myself..."If this really works, how come I have spent the past four years thinking about how I need a new car and have not gotten one?" Way to be dumb, Lauren. Instead of attracting a new car, I've been attracting NEEDING a new car...what dumb dumb.

I think...
"woe is me I have a crappy car"...and the transmission starts leaking.
"ugh, I need a new car"... the starter breaks
"I really need a new car now"...Oh look my door breaks
"I need a car with a door that opens from the inside"...bye bye seatbelt

You see my situation??? Now that I am new, improved, and informed I can attract GETTING A NEW CAR! YAY!

So everyone guess what! I'm getting a new car! :)
Now I need to pick out what kind of car I want so I can visualize myself driving it.

Thank you very much

So ummm...I think people are starting to think I'm a little kookie. I have been a bit obsessed with The Secret, and I keep trying to share my knowledge. Some people just won't have it...oh well...I'm sure this obsession will die down a bit eventually.

My newest goal (yes it's related to the secret:)

There is one guy in The Secret that talks about his gratitude rock. It's just a random rock that he picked up off the ground that he keeps in his pocket. Every time he touches it, he thinks of something he's grateful for. Gratitude is obviously a positive energy, and being grateful for something will attract it. AND for you Negative Nancy's(no mom, i'm not referring to you, it's just a phrase), that don't believe me about this stuff, it just feels good to think of things you are grateful for.

So, my goal is to integrate this into my own life, but I don't want to keep a stone in my pocket. We all know I like jewelry, so I just started wearing a black iridescent bracelet that I made a couple years ago. My plan is every time I look at it I think of something I am grateful for. When I say look at it I mean LOOK at it, and realize its existence on my wrist.

I am grateful for the great year 2010 is, and will continue to be! :)

Positivity

It has been a mere 24 hours since I started listening to The Secret, and I feel fantastic. No, there hasn't been a dramatic change. It's just been an average day...woke up, ate breakfast, played with my dog, watched E! news, went to class, and played with my dog some more. It may sound like an uneventful day, but I have been having so much fun! Why? Cause under the surface I have been visualizing.

I have really witnessed how all this works, and how doubting really screws it up.
How it works:
A little after 10pm last night my sister Danielle, who was on her way to Vegas last I knew, sent me a text message telling me that they had just landed in Phoenix. Here's my thought process... I think that was a typo, terrorists, or the weather. Turns out I think of the reality last, but it had been too windy to land in Vegas. So I ask her when and how she will get to Vegas and she tells me they are saying three hours. Now I am new to this thinking positive thoughts business so I immediately thing "That sucks I feel so bad for her." Lucky her my negativity did not last long. I said to her "It won't take that long, just feel how you will excited you will feel when they tell you you can leave sooner. I'll think positive thoughts too." LIKE TEN MINUTES LATER she tells me they just told them they just need to gas up, set an agenda, and they can leave!! FREAKY!! She landed in Vegas at 12 something (sorry, I don't feel like looking at my phone for the accurate time...but it was 12 something a.k.a less than 3 hrs later.)

HERE'S WHERE I FAILED:
I shouldn't even be talking about this if I am trying to avoid negativity...but I feel I must give an example. Today I arrived at the good old KCC to go to my accounting class. We had a test last class, and my teachers grading is very subjective, so I never really know what to expect (yes, subjective grading of accounting..i don't get it either.) Anywho...as I am walking up the stairs I realize...DUH I need visualize getting the grade I want. I have not gotten a single A in that class, so I aim for a 90%. As I walk up the stairs I visualize him handing me a test with a 90% on it. I feel so proud of myself for finally getting an A on one of these tests. I sit down in class, and a negative though jumps in my brain. I think, "who am I kidding? There is no way I got an A." I then start to remember that one negative thought will start over the whole process so I try to visualize getting a 90% some more, but I just can't get the thought that I already ruined it out of my brain. I get the test back...72%...NOOOOOOO!

Did this discourage me? Yes, a little bit, but I listened to THE SECRET some more on the way home, and I got right back into that positive frame of mind. When I got home I even caught myself smiling while putting away the clean dishes from the dishwasher...a weird time to smile right? I have just been feeling so great, I am getting borderline crazy.

I have only showed this blog to my sister Danielle, because I have been worried about sounding stupid. So...it probably does sound stupid. I will now tweet the link and BELIEVE that the rest of it does not sound stupid...so it won't.

THE SECRET

My sister Dani (my only current reader,) is leaving for Vegas in one hour..yay her! But, that's not what this blog is about. This blog is about how she will win lots of money. You know what...I already feel really happy for her, and the great thing that will come with the money that she WILL win in Vegas this week.

Wanna know how I know all this stuff? Today in the car, Danielle had the audio book of The Secret playing. I've always known the gist of it, but after listening to it I really feel inspired. I will read the whole book, but for now I am putting to use what I learned in the car today. IF I THINK ABOUT HAVING SOMETHING I WANT...I WILL GET IT! Can someone please tell me why I have been fretting about how I am going to get where I wanna go in life?? I DON'T NEED TO KNOW!

So now I begin visualizing. I am going to gather and create images of the life I want...and I WILL GET IT! Imagine how great the world would be if everyone thought like this. For all you doubters out there just think...what does believing hurt? NOTHING! It's win win!

Life is Grand!

Spring jewelry

spring necklace, originally uploaded by LMalm.

This is my newest spring necklace. I really hope to make lots of new stuff soon.

short term

work out in the morning. now that i have documented it, maybe it will be easier to achieve. considering i have to work at seven...it'll be rough

Health

I've been working out this week... yay! Besides this week I normally work out on tuesdays and thursdays, but I haven't really been feeling fit since that started. So, I work out more.

Eating healthy is going to be an issue for me. Don't get me wrong, I eat the healthy stuff. There's no way to get around it with the health nuts in my family. I just really honestly believe I would go into a deep depression without frappuccinos and ramen. Why me?

Owning a boutique

I am on my way to owning a boutique. I have set up an online store with one of my best friends and business partners. Visit it: www.Smegglers-unlimited.com. My mother tells me it's bad marketing to sell my jewelry with weapons, but mother dear, I will make it into good marketing.

I am getting very sick of my current job, and would like to get a job in which I can work with clothes. Preferably nice clothes. If my jewelry business was more profitable I would just quit, rent out a studio, and run my business full time. Someday.

I have also started sewing again. I used to sew back when I was fourteen, that's how all this fashion stuff started...I wanted to be a designer. Once I realized that you need to know how to draw I gave up on that dream, and decided to work with the business part of fashion. Now I know, if I work hard I can do it. I've already sold two bags...YAY me! I bought a sketchbook, and I would like to buy a dressform, then perhaps I will teach myself to make dresses. Fashion school is so expensive. I will teach myself how to create masterpieces while I save for it.

goals

• Find my own studio
• get more peerless charm/smegglers customers
• buy a dressform
• teach myself to draw and make dress

:)

My goals: Introduction

If anyone at all reads this, and you have read the last post, you know that I am dedicating this blog to talk about my goals and where I stand with them. It begins now.

My first goal that I will mention is my Ultimate Goal, and that is just what it sounds like: My main goal in life. Originally owning a store was going to be my Ultimate Goal, but as I was typing it I realized...it's not. Yes, owning a store is a goal that I have, but it is just a stepping stone to achieving my "Ultimate Goal," which is Pure Bliss. I've always been a happy person in general, and I would like to stay that way. Actually, not only stay that way, but grow into an adult that is happy with who I am and what I am doing with myself. I see too many people that get stuck in a rut, and they are unhappy with where they are and what they have done. Well, I don't want to be unhappy with my life. I don't even want to be okay with my life. I want to love it, and everyone in it. I think most of the goals that I have are all just mini goals...all working toward this Ultimate Goal.

I don't know whether i should blog or not

Like i just mentioned in my twitter i always think of good topics to talk about in a blog, then it comes time to blog i forget them...that's bad.

I love reading blogs, and i really want to write and have a blog that people want to read. The only problem is I have nothing to talk about. My life is a little uneventful right now, and I just can't describe it in a way that makes it sound interesting. I could become a celebrity blogger and talk about other people's lives...but i don't care enough about those people to spend that kind of time on it. Who knows if/when i will decide to share this blog anyways. By the time i have enough confidence in it to link it onto facebook or something like that, people won't be reading back this far anyways...right?

I thought about talking about my goals and stuff, but i'm so unfocused that i can't even keep track of them. On the other hand...Maybe blogging about them will help me. yes..that's what i will do.

See...what i mean. I've had ten different opinions in this short little post.

I will start another post to talk about my goals and where i stand with them.

Ellie Mae

Ellie Mae is our new dog that we have had for about a week in a half. She was a huge surprise, and we love her so much. She's a two year old mutt, and she has been great!! well..besides a couple minor potty accidents in the house.

Check out the video of this little lady arriving. Maria and I had no idea what was going on.

New Year

It is a new year, so it is time to make some changes in my life.

Number one change that I am hoping for in "oh-ten" is a new job. I really loved my job before, but now it is just getting pointless. I have found myself trying to get projects done by an unrealistic deadline, and they were pointless tasks to begin with. The big problem with my job is how unpredictable my paychecks will be. One we I will be working tons of hours, and I get a great pay check. Then there's weeks like this week, where I work nine hours...and I have the most hours!

I think I may look for a full-time job. I'm only taking 7 credit hours at school, and I have all the time in the world for a full time job. I would like to find something at a clothing store, since I am pursuing a career in fashion, but I don't know what clothing stores hire full-time, non-management positions.

I have applied to EXPRESS, cause they seem to be the highest fashion around here. I've thought about looking in orland where I can apply at armani exchange or something higher end (compared to my "around here" options,) but I need to figure out if I will be making money or losing money doing that.

I am looking forward to this year, and I am not really sure why. I just have a feeling good things are in store for this year.